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circumstance which, as it adınits of powerfully advocated his cause; and easy proof or disproof, furnishes a his father was disposed to accede to test of the general accuracy of his her desire of having recourse to the statements.

Holy Convocation of Bishops and

Regulars, for a dispensation from « From this time the Monks, as if to the vow into which he had been endo away with any impression that they trapped; but his brother, a Priest, hated me, and to cancel, as it were, the opposed the wishes of the family. recollection of their vain attempt upon He often came to the College, to my life, exhibited towards me

taunt Raffaele with the honour of humane and friendly feelings. They granted me the indulgence of taking Order ; in reply to which, Raffaele

the family, and the decorum of the occasional rides in the company of a Spanish Master, an exiled Monk. Passo appealed to conscience, to justice, ing one day by the Via Gregoriana, the

and to God. But his vigorous resight of a coat-of-arms, over the door of sistance was of little effect; for his a house, which I knew to be those of the family durst not move a step conHanoverian Ambassador, roused in me a trary to the will of the Monks. At strong desire, which I had often before length his mother, urged by his im. experienced, of conversing with some one portunate letters, wrote to him priwho, nourishing wholesome Christian vately, to address a memorial to the principles, could enter into my feelings, Pope, unfolding to him the whole and speak comfort to my soul. I at once signified to my companion my in- tricacies of Roman theology, he

affair. Being uninitiated in the intention of seeking an interview with the Ambassador. He had been strictly strung together, as well as he was charged not to allow me to speak with able, such reasons as suggested any one ; but so earnest were my solicita- themselves to him; as, that the tions, that he at length yielded.

vow ought to be spontaneous; that “ I presented myself to the Ambassa clear and reasonable instruction dor, leaving the Spaniard in the ante should be given to the candidate, chamber. Finding myself alone with that the nature of the vow might him, I hastily proceeded to explain the not be misconceived ; that the rule cause of my visit, and fully disclosed of St. Benedict required that the the change which had taken place in my

constitutions should be explained to religious sentiments. He manifested

a candidate three times in the course great surprise at my communication ; and, embracing me with Christian fer.

of a year, and that he should have a vour, spoke to me in the true spirit of

copy of them in his room, in order religion. My object in this interview to meditate upon the choice which was not to seek aid to escape from the

he was about to make; whereas, fangs of the religious and political ty contrary to these wholesome regularanny under which Italy groans: I well tions, the rules had been concealed knew that the charge with which the from him ; his consent to the vow Ambassador was invested, precluded all been under coercion ; and he had possibility of assistance from him. I

been made to believe that each step was actuated solely by a desire to con which he was urged to take was a fide my secret to a sympathizing soul; and I merely narrate this occurrence, in

mere form, and bound him to noorder that the Hanoverian Ambassador

thing. This memorial his mother may be appealed to as an irrefragable

forwarded to the Holy Convocation, witness to my having declared myself a

The Cardinals professed astonish. Protestant in faith four years before my

ment at the atrocious facts it disarrival in England. I earnestly beg of closed, and immediately summoned him to bear witness to this solemn truth, the Procurator-General, D. Girolomo in praise of that God who alone was the Bottini, and commanded him to give author of my conversion."

Ciocci liberty to support before them He had now completed three years

his protestations against the commu

nity of the Cistercians. of his incarceration in the College of the Benedictine and Cistercian

“ These proceedings soon became Monks at Rome, in the monastery known, and were the general topic of of San Bernardo. His mother had conversation in Rome. The Masters

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were loud in their invectives ; but they imprisonment if he continued obstiassumed towards me the manner of nate. "Well, then, I will go,” said lainbs, and greater liberty was awarded

he; “but, remember, I am at liberty me; for, after this public appeal, vigi

to restrain my tongue.” The Conlance over my steps would have been

fessor was not content with his new impolitic; as all would have thought, that, in keeping me strictly guarded,

penitent. “ But I humbly hope,” they were actuated by fear lest I should

says the narrator, " that my prayers further expose their enormities."

and faith on that occasion were not

unaccepted by God.” He had now been struggling for The four months having passed, six months, and earnestly hoped he was cited to appear before the that the tribunal would pronounce Convocation, “ to hear his conjudgment; but, contrary to his ex demnation.” With astonishment he pectation, silence was imposed on read the words, “to hear his conhim, and the case was adjourned for demnation.” The decision was, four months. During this interval that his monastic profession was he was strenuously solicited to with. null; that he was at liberty to lay draw his complaints; and in order aside the Cistercian babit, and to that their entreaties might be more return to live freely in the bosom of effectual, the Monks, Masters, and his family ; but that he was prohi. General, he says, exhibited towards bited from marrying. He says.“ him a degree of affection perfectly fraternal. But well I knew," he “ I started on hearing this unjust senadds, “what snakes lay concealed tence, signed by him who dares to call beneath the flowers.

himself the Vicar of Christ ; and, sumAt this period he became ac

moning all my energy, in a firm voice I quainted with the widowed Queen exclaimed, 'I protest against any excep

tion whatsoever!' I was told that I of Sardinia, Maria Theresa, who twice visited the monastery, and

could make my protest by writing to the

Cardinal Patrizi, Prefect of the Tribuwas informed of his mournful his

nal. Thus were my hopes suddenly tory. She professed compassion for

swept away. If I would return home, I his situation ; “but educated,” says must accept the iniquitous sentence, and he, “in a royal palace in Italy, her continue à Monk without the monastic heart was callous to the groans of walls; refusing to do this, the sentence the unfortunate. Had she truly remained suspended, and I had no right pitied me, she would not have to quit the College. wanted means to protect me.”.

By the line of conduct I pursued," I At Easter he was commanded to

closed against myself an easy way of confess; but not to the usual Con

escape from all my embarrassments. fessor, D. Candido Lorenzi, the

Once more with my family, I might only person who had ever shown iniquitous Papal laws at defiance ; but,

have abandoned Italy, and have set the the slightest sympathy in his griefs ; in the flattering persuasion that I should but to a Carmelite of the convent

be able to reconcile my liberty with the Della Vittoria. With regard to the endearing ties of country and friends, I confession, which he now looked never thought of bursting those strongest upon merely as an act of Christian of all bonds, drawn by nature between humility, he was inclined to sub man and the beings who have watched mit, though he felt a repugnance to

his birtir. obeying a single precept of the “ The course of philosophy was at Romish religion; but when one length completed, and my parents came man was chosen by the Superiors to

to the College for the purpose of obtain

ing the consent of the Superiors to my hear his coufession, in preference to

return home ; but their good intentions another, while the rules forbad the

were overcome by the representations of imposition of such a yoke, he deter

the Masters. The nature of their long mined to contest the point with vi conversation with the Superiors, ere I gour. He persisted in his refusal

was summoned, was fully revealed by till Holy Wednesday : the following the manner in which I was received by day was appointed for the commu them. Having flown to embrace my nion; and he was menaced with mother, she avoided my approach, re

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ceding a few paces, and concealing her young Monks, from the St. Bernard face, bathed in tears, in her handkerchief. monastery, to another more commoWith surprise I addressed her, exclaim, dious and magnificent,-that of the ing, “Why is this? What have I Holy Cross of Jerusalem, in Rome ; done ? Am I not worthy of your affec

but as he would not sign a declaration ?'

tion of regret at his proceedings for “« No,' said my father, with tears in his eyes, but with a firm voice, — No, procuring deliverance from his pows, you are not worthy of the name of son.

and that a monastic life was volun. You embitter our declining years; you tarily chosen by him, he was dedisgrace the good education you have tained among the old Monks, whose received; you have stifled the good severe rules were very irksome to principles that we have instilled into him. Not being a willing prisoner, your

he made no scruple to violate the “ Here interrupting him, I said, "At regulations; an instance of which least tell me, I entreat, in what I have

we relate, because it refers to two failed.'

members of the English Royal Fa. ** Have you the effrontery to ask mily, the mention of whom affords such a question ? Are you, then, lost to

an opportunity of testing the truth a sense of remorse? You curse God;

of the narrative. you blaspheme Christ.' “ I could hear no more. Roused with

“ I was one day with the Prior ard indignation at so black a calumny, I ex

several Monks, when a cicerone preclaimed, in a voice of passion, 'Liars !

sented himself, and besought the former deceivers ! have they proceeded even to

to allow the church to be opened for such lengths ? Do they aim at bursting

some English ladies, who were waiting the bonds of consanguinity ? Will they below, to view the interior. On hearing deprive me of the affections of my

that they were English, and no doubt family? Do not, my dear parents, allow

conceiving that they were Protestants, yourselves to be thus deceived. I wor.

the harsh character of the Prior became ship God, I adore Christ ; but because I am a Christian, I am hated by those replied, that he could not permit it to be

annoyed and irritated ; and he roughly persons, whose only god is their belly.'

shown. The cicerone shrugged his « « Do you not see that you are con shoulders, and went away, murmuring demning yourself ?'

the reply. * To speak evil of the Ministers of God imprecations against the incivility of the

Monks. Ignorant that his refusal prois gross impiety; it is offending the

ceeded from a resolution taken of keepAlmighty in the apple of his eye. Utter

ing the church closed at noon, for the not such sacrilegious words; suffer them

quiet and good order of the monastery, I not to proceed out of your mouth.

looked upon it as a mere display of ill Were you indeed a Christian, it is not

feeling towards the English ; and, has. to be conceived that the Superiors would

ing declared myself a Protestant, felt all declare you impious, all concur in

called upon to wage war against this condemning you,--all affirm that you

spirit of intolerance. Therefore, hastily exhibit no tokens of piety. You say

arising, I followed the man, determined you adore Christ, while you trample

to open the church for the party. on the laws of the Church. Are you

" Where are you going ?' demanded not sensible that by slighting her you

the Monks. blaspheme Christ?'

“I am going to open the church.' “ My parents left me, turning away ««You need not trouble yourself; they in sorrow and anger; and I went to my

Are Protestants.' chamber, overwhelmed with grief and

«« It is on that account I am going.' desolation at being thus abandoned.

“At this reply, the Monks and Prior It was then I felt how consolatory was prayer ; how inestimable the privilege of I proceeded to open the door of the

remained fixed with astonishment; and being permitted to address God as Our

church myself, that no blame might be Father, who art in heaven !'”

imputed to the sacristan, I was in

formed that the ladies were, Her Royal Thus terminated the fourth year Highness the Duchess of Cambridge, of his residence in the monastery. and her daughter, the Princess Augusta. At the commencement of the fifth They were accompanied by two gentlehe ought, in the usual course, to men, whose names I did not hear. Four have been drafted off, with other years had now elapsed since I had had

was

any communication with the gentler sex,

ever, accustomed to persecution, and excepting only my mother and sisters; knowing that I had given the Monks so that, on finding myself in their pre sufficient cause for offence, I resolved not sence, I felt troubled, confused, wanting to be annoyed at any consequences that in those gentle manners required in social might ensue. On entering the monas. intercourse ; but, after a tew minutes, tery, I heard myself called excommuni. my bashfulness being overcome by their cated ;' but still, notwithstanding the easy and affable deportment, I was able severe penalty prescribed by the rule for to reply to their questions, and to give the violation of the cloister, my offence them a brief account of the origin and was, to all appearance, overlooked.” history of the church and Cistercian institution. The Princess Augusta, led,

In order to cope with his wily perhaps, to suspect the truth from seeing tyrants, Ciocci formed the project of me dressed with more studied care than imploring the assistance of some became a cloister, inquired if I were Jesuit, well knowing the influence satisfied to be shut up in a monastery.

these men

possess in Rome, and “ “ No, your Highness, this habit is also how eagerly they seize every none of my choice, but I am forced,' opportunity that presents itself of was my answer.

lowering the pride of other eccle“ This prompt reply, which revealed

siastical Orders. For this end he all the bitterness and agony of my soul, made choice of Father Mislei, who perhaps raised in the hearts of the two illustrious travellers a feeling of pity for dinals; and, if he pleased, could

was Confessor to many of the Carthe speaker; for a long silence ensued, which was at last interrupted by my in

render him service. viting them to inspect the garden of the

Mislei recommended him to go to monastery. Thus did I again permit Cardinal Patrizi, whom he exaspe. my feelings to hurry me into another act rated by speaking against the deluof indiscretion. They accepted my in- sions of the Church of Rome. Misvitation, perfectly unconscious that the lei then advised him to go to ano. precincts of the garden were inviolable, ther Cardinal, Castracani, to conno female being allowed to tread its fess and apologize for his language paths; and that the excommunication of to Patrizi. Then follow the strange the Pope hung over its entrance, ready to fall on the devoted head of the unfor- the words of the narrator :

scenes which we shall describe in tunate Monk who should dare to be the means of breaking the rule.

“ He mildly inquired, whether I really “ The Papal censures, which had at did not believe in the doctrine of tranone time appeared to my mind so for substantiation ; and, in short, in all that midable, no longer filled me with terror. the Romish Church taught. I frankly The perusal of the Bible had convinced answered, 'No.' His Eminence did not me of the usurpation and fallacy of pon at this reply bristle his hair like a tifical supremacy, and I had become wounded bear, nor swell himself like a careless of the consequences of wrath porcupine, said to dart his quills at an from that quarter. Commanding the offender; no, he did something worse ; servant, therefore, to open the entrance he smiled with the smile of a Jesuit, to the garden on the side of the Piazza and said, in a gentle tone, 'My son, I Termini, 1 hastened to the spot, to await clearly perceive that there is no malice the arrival of the royal visiters, who, in you; you give too ready an ear to the having returned to their carriage, were inventions of heretics, and this is a conproceeding in that direction. They en sequence of your not having received tered the garden, and expressed them- sufficient instruction. I feel assured that selves much delighted with the beauty when you shall have heard a series of of its appearance. The running streams, lectures from the good Father-Jesuits, the shady walks, and the brilliant and those excellent men, of whom you al. odoriferous flowers, called forth their ready know something, your ideas will admiration. To me they spoke but lit. be cleared, and the darkness with which tle ; but, before leaving, they asked my you are now enveloped will give place to name, and inscribed it on a page of their light. Repair, then, immediately, to S. Guide to Rome.'

Eusebio for three days : that time will, “ No sooner were the visiters gone, I think, suffice to set your doubts at rest. than I began to reflect on the imprudent Tell my wishes to your Superior, and length to which I had been carried by go without delay; you will there be the warmth of my feelings. But, how. treated as you merit.'

“ The idea of escaping with so easy a myself that the word of a Cardinal would penance, of being able to pass three days be broken. At length the truth burst away from the monastery of San Ber upon my mind, that possibly his words nardo,ma place odious to me from a might be easily verified in a contrary thousand remembrances,—and of mixing sense, and that there was something with persons who, I yet supposed, would sybil-like about them. Had I not made echo my complaints against the Monks, to him an open avow

of my disbelief awoke in my heart such joy and glad- in the Romish opinions ? and yet I had ness, that I prepared with alacrity to interpreted his words, -as you merit,' in obey the command. To return to the the sense which my own conscience dic. monastery ; to ask the consent of the tated, without reflecting that he spoke Superior, which was readily granted ; to according to his. prepare my portmanteau ; was the affair “ The Jesuit Giuliani entered at this of a moment, As I was getting into moment, and found me absorbed in these the carriage, two persons, of sinister reflections. Recognising in him one of aspect, approached, and signified their the two who, but a short time before, intention of accompanying me.

Who had done the honours of the house, and they were, or what was their profession, overwhelmed me with civilities, I hoped I knew not; all that I was acquainted to be able to obtain, through his means, with was their names,-one was Con some enlightenment on the subject that stantino Bontempi, the other Pietro engrossed my thoughts. The profound Sordini.

obscurity which reigned in the apart“ These men I had often seen talking ment prevented me from perceiving that with the Superior, but without troubling he no longer wore the same hilarity of myself to learn anything of their calling; countenance with which he had received for their appearance was by no means me, otherwise I should probably have prepossessing. With regard to their pro. abstained from a request which I immefession, I think

may venture to assert diately made, that he would perinit the that they were men of bad character, ruf window to be opened, for the admission fians of the monastery,Hesh sold to the of light and air. Before the words Scribes and Pharisees. These persons were finished, he interrupted me, ex• accompanied me to the gate of S. Euse claiming, in a voice of thunder, bio; where, having consigned me into “ • How, wretched youth! thou cointhe hands of others, they instantly dis- plainest of the dark, whilst thou art appeared, taking with them my servant, living in the clouds of error! Dost and, what afterwards proved to me a still thou desire the light of heaven, while greater misfortune, my portmanteau. thou rejectest the light of the Catholic Whether this was the effect of inadver; faith ?' tency, or a refinement of cruelty, I can " Though I perceived remonstrance not deterinine. My attention being ar would be useless, I replied, • Knox, if rested by the two Jesuits who had come you are yet ignorant of it, that I have out to receive me, and who were profuse been sent here by the Cardinal Castrain their civilities, I neither heeded the cani, for three days, for the purpose of absence of my servant, whom I supposed receiving instruction, and not to be occupied in his duties, nor the sudden treated as a criminal.' departure of the carriage, but walked at “ For three days !'he resumed, once into the monastery with my two counterfeiting my tone of voice, For jailers.

three days ! that would be nothing. “We traversed long corridors, till we The dainty youth will not, forsooth, be arrived at the door of an apartment roughly treated : it remains to be seen which they requested me to enter, and whether he desires to be courteously enthey themselves retired. On opening tertained. Be converted, be converted, the door, I found myself in a close, dark condemned soul ! fortunate is it for thee room, barely large enough for the little that thou art come to this place ! Thou furniture it contained, which consisted wilt never quit it, excepting with the of a small hard bed, --hard as the con real fruits of penitence! Among these science of an Inquisitor,—a little table silent shades canst thou meditate, at thy cut all over, and a dirty, ill-used chair. leisure, upon the deplorable state into The window, which was shut, and barred which thou art fallen. Woe unto thee, with iron, resisted all my efforts to open if thou refusest to listen to the voice of it. My heart sunk within me, and I God, who conducts souls into solitude, began to cogitate on the destiny that was that he may speak with them !' So in store for me; but, notwithstanding saying, he abruptly left me. all my misgivings, I could not persuade “I remained alone, drooping under

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