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Tues. 17. From these words, "Shall not the Judge of all the 291 earth do right," I preached a sermon (which I have not done before in Kingswood school since it was built) directly on predestination. On Wednesday, (and so every Wednesday and Thursday,) I saw the sick in Bristol; many of whom I found were blessing God for his seasonable visitation. In the evening I put those of the women who were grown slack into distinct bands by themselves, and sharply reproved many for their unfaithfulnessto the grace of God; who bore witness to his word by pouring upon us all the spirit of mourning and supplication.

Thur. 19. I visited many of the sick, and, among the rest, J————— W———————, who was in grievous pain both of body and mind. After a short time spent in prayer we left her; but her pain was gone; her soul being in full peace, and her body also so strengthened, that she immediately rose, and the next day went abroad.

Sat. 21. I explained in the evening the 33d chapter of Ezekiel : in applying which I was suddenly seized with such a pain in my side that I could not speak. I knew my remedy, and immediately kneeled down; in a moment the pain was gone, and the voice of the Lord cried aloud to the sinners, "Why will ye die, O house of Israel?

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that, "Whatever his private opinion was, he would never publicly preach against us." He said, "That promise was only an effect of human weakness, and he was now of another mind."

Mon. 30. I fixed an hour every day for speaking with each of the bands, that no disorderly walker might remain among them, nor any of a careless or contentious spirit; and the hours from ten to two, on every day but Saturday, I set apart for speaking with who should desire it. any

Wed. April 1. At his earnest and repeated request, I went to see one under sentence of death in the New Prison; but the keeper told me, "Mr. Wilson (the Curate of the parish) had given charge I should not speak with him." I am clear from the blood of this man; let Mr. Wilson answer for it to God.

Sat. 4. I believed both love and justice required that I should speak my sentiments freely to Mr. Wh-, concerning the letter he had published, said to be "in answer to my Sermon on Freegrace." The sum of what I observed to him was this: 1. That it was quite imprudent to publish it at all, as being only the putting of weapons into their hands, who loved neither the one nor the other. 2. That if he was constrained to bear his testimony (as

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them. On Thursday, at the meeting of that Society, I read over the names of these, and desired to speak with each of them the next day, as soon as they had opportunity. Many of them afterwards gave sufficient proof, that they were seeking Christ in sincerity. The rest determined to keep on trial, till the doubts concerning them were removed.

Tues. 14. I was much concerned for one of our sisters, who having been but a few times with the still brethren, was on a sudden so much wiser than her teachers, that I could neither understand her, nor she me. Nor could I help being a little surprised at the profound indifference she showed, who a few days before would have plucked out her eyes, had it been possible, and given them to me.

Wed. 15. I explained, at Greyhound-Lane, the latter part of the fourth chapter to the Ephesians. I was so weak in body, that I could hardly stand; but my spirit was much strengthened.

I found myself growing sensibly weaker all Thursday, so that on Friday the 17th, I could scarce get out of bed, and almost as soon as I was up, was constrained to lie down again. made shift to drag myself on, in the evening, to Short's Gardens. Nevertheless I Having, not without difficulty, got up the stairs, I read those words, (though scarce intelligibly, for my voice too was almost gone,) "Whom he did foreknow, he did also predestinate.” In a mo

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4. Because they conform to the world, in wearing gold, and gay or costly apparel. 5. Because they are by no means zealous of good works, or at least only to their own people: for these reasons (chiefly, I will rather, God being my helper, stand quite alone than join with them; I mean, till I have full assurance, that they are better acquainted with the truth as it is in Jesus.'"

Fri. May 1. I was with one who told me," She had been hitherto taught of man; but now she was taught of God only. She added, "That God had told her, not to partake of the Lord's Supper any more, since she fed upon Christ continually." O who is secure from Satan transforming himself into an angel of light!

In the evening I went to a little Love-feast which Peter Böhler made for those ten, who joined together on this day three years, to confess our faults one to another. Seven of us were present; one being sick, and two unwilling to come. Surely the time will return, when there shall be again,

"Union of mind, as in us all one soul!"

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trembling much,) "You all deceive your own souls. There is no higher state than that I have described. You are in a very dangerous error. You know not your own hearts. You fancy your corruptions are taken away, whereas they are only covered. Inward corruption never can be taken away, till our bodies are in the dust."

Was there inward corruption in our Lord? servant be as his Master?

Or, cannot the

Sun. 3. I gave the scriptural account of one who is in Christ a new creature, from whom "old things are passed away," and in whom "all things are become new." In the afternoon I explained at Marybòne-Fields, to a vast multitude of people, "He hath showed thee, O man, what is good. And what doth the Lord require of thee, but to do justly, and to love mercy, and to walk humbly with thy God?" The Devil's children fought valiantly for their master, that his kingdom should not be destroyed. And many stones fell on my right hand and on my began to examine them closely, what reward they were to have for left. But when I their labour, they vanished away like smoke.

Wed. 6. Was a day on which we agreed to meet for prayer and humbling our souls before God, if haply he might show us his will concerning our re-union with our brethren of Fetter-Lane. And to this intent all the men and women bands met at ene in the af